Tuesday.

[witchscauldron]

Yup...it's...Tuesday. Not much happening here. Cats sleeping. I wish to the Gods they'd sleep at night, tho. >_< Instead they run around and fight and wail until I want to drown them all, or crush their little skulls in my hands until they bleed from the nose. Not entirely condusive to sleeping.

Sleep is still being an issue. Last night I was actually tired at 11 PM, so I tried to sleep. I instead read my Book of Shadows, and then stared at the wall until 12:30, whereupon I got a glass of juice, some benadryl, and hoped it would at least put me out.

Well, that worked, mostly - I started getting paranoid off and on that my blanket was wet somewhere, and then I'd hear the cats and DOOM. :\ I did get some good sleep, tho. However, I'd have kept sleeping through the morning if Jason hadn't called at 10:30 and woken me up, I think. And I still feel very...spaced. Just drifty. Easily distracted. Of course, the wind's up today, blowing in a new snow-system methinks, and I always get very absent when the wind is up. Time for a walk later.

I finished my Book of Shadows binder - it's nice black cordoroy over the cover of the binder, and I painted on it. Very nifty. Kinda glowy looking, in places. And it's much easier to open and read. Still a maiden-killer, tho - It's a 2 1/2" binder, and the damn thing's almost full already. Ah well.

I think tonight I will have an Esbat ritual, and go talk to Bríd. It's time to consult about her Brideo'ga and whatnot. I also have some things to bless etc., and I'm just feeling ritually lately, for whatever reason. I try to enjoy these periods as they come - I also like going out and doing ritual with others, and get less anxious about it. I get anxious from my lack of coven training. I don't know how others do ritual, or what herbal mixes they use, or what's "right", or "wrong". I only know what I would do, and hope that it's ok. I'm quite happy to indulge this appetite for ritual right now because sometimes I go the opposite way and can't muster the energy to do ritual for months.

And I do feel like I'm just a babbling idiot these days, posting nothing in here except mindless everyday trivia - "I went here, ate this, and oh, I went and slept too." I hate to be boring. Maybe I'll stop until I have something interesting to post about. o.o But then again I don't want to stop talking, because then people think I'm gone...

- m, contemplating hibernation.

Comments

merfle.

[silere.livejournal.com]

Even the mundane bits of your life are interesting to me. i don't think you could be boring if you tried. ~shrug~

[starfallz.livejournal.com]

You are a long way from boring me. I love it whenever you write, truely.

mmmm hibernation :)

[kodekitten.livejournal.com]

Don't worry! I enjoy hearing about your days, because they're CERTANILY more interesting than mine. :) I would love to have taken one of those walks with you; I really need to go outside.

Feeling ritually is great. Because of that uncertain, not knowing if something's "right" or "wrong" feeling, I usually don't perform any myself, but I really think I should. It would be good for me, and definitly be fun. Indulge! Take advantage of the hankering to do something, becuase later it'll be heard to get the energy up :)

[metachaos.livejournal.com]

Morg, you should know by now that "right and wrong" are relative. Don't worry about it. Perhaps ask, when with others, if they prefer you do it some other way, but I really don't think you should let it get you down. I mean, it's not like you're worshipping in some church where they will burn you alive if you don't kneel at the right time... =)

-big hugs- Be yourself and never be sorry for being so.