Life as a Pentacle

[witchscauldron]

I'm heading out for the weekend; got some extended family stuff going on in Orillia, so I hopefully will be having a good weekend over there.

NO HUMIDITY!! *relaxes* I got a good night's sleep, and am cool and comfortable. I hope it stays this way all weekend; I love sleeping in tents when the night air is cool. Mmmr. Some time in the country! I'm gonna spend it scouting for feathers, cool branches, and mebbe somewhere to swim.

So anyway...back to the title of this entry. On one of my favorite message boards, an old thread from some time ago was ressurected. I read my response then, terse and to the point, and realized that much has changed since then. Well, perhaps...evolved is the better term here. So here are those thoughts.

How balanced do you think yourself to be? If I were to view you as a pentagram, using these levels, what would you look like?

I feel very balanced these days - something I strive for as a Pagan, but don't often achieve. This year, though, has been all about spiritual and mental housecleaning, getting rid of negative attachments and people, finding a comfortable level with my Self again. I'm actually surprised how well it has gone.

I will put this in a way that they make sense to me.

My Spiritual state is a work-in-progress...or perhaps more appropriately an unfolding path under my feet. Each of these is dependant on one another...but in the end they all return to my spirituality, something that pervades every aspect of my life.

My Physical state of being, my earthiness, is well grounded and healthy these days. I still have health issues, but I feel so much better about my body these days.

My Emotional state is balanced; I'm not flying off into rages, but neither am I talking to myself in a corner, nor am I NOT feeling. I am friendly. I enjoy company (mostly). I can deal with the outside world.

My Intellectual self is very dependant on my emotional and physical well being; I find it difficult to dreg up fact and logic and scholarly pursuits when I feel like crap. These days, it doesn't seem that hard, although I still really have to want to get into it, to pursue anything to that end. I'm currently reading "The Golden Bough" - tough read, but really cool.

My Mental state is so positive right now, I'm beside myself almost. Waking up with those days where I CAN do anything, and I can feel the movement of the Earth and her energies, and I can hear the music of the spheres singing...mmm. I feel skilled - my work is getting more complex, more creative.I am painting and drawing and writing again. I can get up and have the ambition to do something, and DO it.

You can probably tell I enjoy this too much. I am feeling like a whole person for the first time in a very LONG time. As the Navaho say, I walk in beauty. I can look at things objectively, or passionately, or be just vile, or compassionate - because it's MY choice. I feel like I have control again. I can invoke Love and Light, in Perfect Love and Perfect Trust, and not feel like a hypocrite. I can also wrap myself in the dark womb of the Void, run on intution, and not feel like I'm avoiding the light.

This, if you can't tell, is good.

So I leave you with those thoughts, before I wander westward this weekend. :) Try to enjoy yours, ne? I'll be back Sunday.

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*hugs* Have a good weekend you :)