Owl.

I am terribly irritable today. I apologize in advance if I snap at anyone unreasonably - I seem to want to bite faces off for being asked simple questions. I'm sorry.

Been doing some thinking about Owl. My heart totem is Owl - she comes to me as a soft red lady, an eastern screech owl. Lately I wonder if there isn't more to it, though; something I've been pondering, exploring, feeling out. It feels different. But it feels right.

It's probably the quietest part of myself, not surprisingly, if it's even a part of me at all. Shifts into Owl swoop out of darkness and vanishes just as quickly. When I am Owl I am a fleeting, yet fierce huntress that sees through bullshit and grasps truth in firm talons.

I am very visual as a person, and colour plays a large part in my symbolism and dreams. With Owl, colouration is red-phase eastern screech owl, unsurprisingly. But it is very pale, barely marked and barred on the feathers. As time moves on I have a feeling the markings will turn very silver, leaving me like a ghost owl. Eyes are very pale as well, a whitish-green. I feel eerie in this form, almost as if I glow. There are no other marks; no crescent moons like my other forms. But I have seen, just the once, a clear green gem stone set over my heart, nestled into the feathers. Very interesting.

Owl has come on stronger since I have started clearing out my heart chakra. I am not sure if it is my totem helping me, or if this is actually an aspect of my Self. It's very confusing, and I don't believe I need any more confusion in my life!
>_<

Wooha. Money here finally. Gonna package up some stuff and mail out some pendants, maybe have a nice meal, buy some drugs. :p
-M.