we are silver...

Went to the hospital last night. The waiting room was awful - too bright, and the automatic door squeaked. People talking loudly...children squealing and shouting...ugh. Not a very nice place. An hour and a half there was enough. I was glad they called me.

Was really rather quick in the emerg. Saw a doctor relatively fast. Of course, the way they play with you to see if you have a migraine is to shine a fucking light in your eyes! >_< Asshole. I wanted to clock him. Nurses were good, tho. Went through all the stuff I've taken or tried for migraines...doctor spits out some name that sounds familiar. I say I think I've tried that, but he says it has a great success rate, and we'll give it a try. Great. Woo.

Stuff gets injected into my hip - OW. Apparently it's an anti-nauseant. I have to lie down for half an hour. It doesn't do much for my stomach, really, but my head - Oh my gods. It felt like someone had stuck my head in a metal band, was twisting it tighter, AND was sticking screws into my temples. So after half an hour the nurse comes back, I tell her this, and she nods.

Have I mentioned I hate doctors? I know they know stuff, but sometimes you'd think they know nothing at all. :\ And this guy was just...meh. So he asks if I'm driving, which I can't, so he nods and hooks me up with some painkillers. I'm going "Ok, this'll last an hour or two - I might get to sleep." Demerol generally doesn't do tons for me.

Apparently I've graduated to a new level of pain control. Lemme tell ya - morphine is NOT for the uninitiated. O_o Yes...they gave me morphine. The shot has my right arm all swollen. I came home, watched a little tv, started to get really stoned, and went to lie down in bed. I remember giggling a lot, being ferociously aroused, and then nothing. That was around 11:45.

I woke up today at 1:32 P.M. Talk about your comas. I don't think I'd want to have to have that type of painkiller in my bloodstream at all continuously, or for a long period of time. Wow. O_o I'm sitting here, uncertain of whether my migraine is gone, totally hazy and groggy. I hope my migraine is gone...I hope. But I don't know....

Meh!

Eyes.

Migraine is gone. Woo! Glad that it is. Still kinda hazy-feeling, but I'm told morphine has a tendency to linger. Not upset tho, since the pain is gone.

My eyes...they scare me. They almost always hover in this green shade, light to medium grade, darkly rimmed. They are green like ivy, like moss, like the ocean. They are like small lanterns, a flickering light from within giving them glow. I call these my wolf eyes. They flare occasionally, when I am Changed....but lately they are always like this. My eyes are always wolf. It is as if the light coming through from within is designed to show to the world...