Craving Rain.

More restless sleep last night. I dreamt I was in a huge forest, mossy and falling leaves. A mist rolled in, thick and white overhead, and then a storm began. The trees began falling over in the wind. I was with a group of 3 other people - as we left the forest, we walked along a beach, and I was collecting fist-sized chunks of crystal in the sand. I kept having fleeting visions of a small witchy cottage in the forest, rich blue twilight and a circle with a lintel. Second night in a row I've been collecting crystal. Odd.

Of course, then I had a dream about my mother driving a Ptbo. city bus towards Jackson Park and dropping off children. I am not sure my dreams are a reliable thing. O_o Mom is coming to visit me on Friday, hopefully. I like it when people come to visit. I'm going to buy some herbs when she's here, I think.

It's hot; going to be one of those hot miserable days of Summer from which I hermit myself. I have things to do, but somehow none of them (aside from my banking) seem terribly urgent. Especially shaving my legs - A necessary evil, but ~*UGH*~ how I loathe it. :\

I wish we would get rain again. It's that time of the year where the world begins to dry up completely...if my birthday were a full moon, I might appreciate that. There is something lovely about the moon after Lughnassadh, full and golden rising over toasted fields and rusty-green leaves ready to change pigment. If it were my birthday, maybe then I would love it...but my birthday is seldom on a full moon. Close, though - it is a waning moon this year. Perhaps it will still be beautiful, even if I have to stay up very late to see it. And if you're curious, go check your own birthday. :p http://www.googol.com/moon/

Job?

I just applied for a job as a Customer Care rep. here:
http://www.nucomm.net/html/BnewsAd.htm The building they're moving into with this call center is the plant building my mother worked in for 8 years. That seems kinda...odd, to me. My mom's out of work now...if she had better computer skills I'd tell her to apply there too.

I'm worried; what if I get sick sick sick again with my head? We'd be closer to Smiths Falls, in Brockville. I could join the Operatic Society again. But we'd farther away from where I really want my religious life to be...I don't really want to go back to being a lone witch anymore. What if I get a job there and Jason doesn't? (He's applying, too, for Tech Support.) I can't drive, I'd be so lonely, and I don't want to live in a city alone with no friends and no computer...

I'm having an anxiety attack over applying to a stupid job! How ridiculous is that? I pulled the rug out from under my own feet on this one...bah. I need a job, but I don't need this...I'm so stupid sometimes.

Update:
I got called back about my resume already. O_o Asking the usual questions about availability etc. I won't really know when I can go to Brockville for the job testing session (2-4 hrs. long!) until Jason applies and gets a response about his application. We'll have to get up there and go together. OMG OMG OMG...*stressed* And then if we get hired? A major move - pack the whole house, find somewhere to live in Brockville area on short notice, need a car, get rid of kittens, START A FULL TIME JOB...we couldn't start for at least a month, tho! *stressin'* MARF. I feel like my day's been launched into warp speed on me. Today's goal was to finish laundry! Not get a job interview....*worry worry*

Yay. I'm a total mess. Woo. I'll be here, stressin' my hair out...


( Stupidity. )

-M.