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witchscauldronIt's kinda empty here. Zathras is looking dejected, sleeping on his Dad's pillow. He was upset when Jason left tonight. Now, once again, I find myself in a very quiet house, and missing him. Didn't take long for two weeks to go by. :/
I have a shiny green robe now. It's very nice, and there was enough fabric left over that someone else could have a shiny green robe if they wanted one, too. Since Egyptian stuff is the only stuff I'll be allowed to wear green to with Circe Argent for a good long time, that's ok. I have to handsew the trim on this week, which is slightly daunting...lots of small backstitch, and patience for me. Lady C. was very nice in sewing it for me today.
Trying really hard to not feel awkward around the Circe Argent/Wyllow Rose people. I like them a lot, but I feel so....something, in the back of my head. Like a combination of unqualified/ungraceful/tongue-tied/stupid. Been squashing the anxiety and paranoia HARD; I keep coming home a little wound up and definetely happy, so I must be doing something right. Gotta keep doing it, with the Isis invo. shortly to occur.
Did some more thinking about conventions today. Too many, too many! But I think I've got it narrowed down to ConVocation in Michigan in February, and C-ACE in June. I have to get my shit together in short order for Convo, but I think I can, and C-ACE is well in hand.
There was some talk about Kinvention in K/W, but I don't think I know enough people going, and have enough interest in what's going on there to seriously consider attending. I am still very interested in![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
misslynx's potential seminar on therianthropy there, but that's not enough justification for me to attend an entire weekend.
I'd still like to go to SE Howl in March, but I am afraid it is too expensive for me, since I'd probably have to fly down to Alabama. The only way it's a possibility is if someone is driving from up here, and sincemetachaos is the closest person to me and she's in Lansing (12-14 hours by car), I somehow doubt that is an option.
Anyway...enought con talk.
I've come to a realization today, about a mood I've had for the last few days. I feel icky about my body, for whatever reason. My skin is unhappy, I don't feel particularily attractive in any respect, and I feel kinda touchy about the fact I have a belly. I feel fat. I don't like who I see in the mirror, with her bad winter-cursed skin. I'm dry, I'm flaky, I'm breaking out, and I'm blotchy. Ugh!
This is remarkably odd for me, since I'm usually rather comfortable with my body. I don't know. Gonna dye my hair again this week, see if it helps.
I'm also going to try to pull a "detox" week this week, anyway. Lots of water, balanced and regular eating schedule, no soda, no excess crap, and EXERCISE. I have really been feeling the lack of walking. It's unfortunate that there's a shitload of ice outside my door now, since I have to go out no matter what, and ice greatly increases the chance of me falling and breaking things. No excuses, tho. There must be walking, at least twice this week. Don't like feeling like a slug.
Fuck. It's been an hour, and I'm lonely again. Distance makes the heart grow fungus.
:(
-M.
I have a shiny green robe now. It's very nice, and there was enough fabric left over that someone else could have a shiny green robe if they wanted one, too. Since Egyptian stuff is the only stuff I'll be allowed to wear green to with Circe Argent for a good long time, that's ok. I have to handsew the trim on this week, which is slightly daunting...lots of small backstitch, and patience for me. Lady C. was very nice in sewing it for me today.
Trying really hard to not feel awkward around the Circe Argent/Wyllow Rose people. I like them a lot, but I feel so....something, in the back of my head. Like a combination of unqualified/ungraceful/tongue-tied/stupid. Been squashing the anxiety and paranoia HARD; I keep coming home a little wound up and definetely happy, so I must be doing something right. Gotta keep doing it, with the Isis invo. shortly to occur.
Did some more thinking about conventions today. Too many, too many! But I think I've got it narrowed down to ConVocation in Michigan in February, and C-ACE in June. I have to get my shit together in short order for Convo, but I think I can, and C-ACE is well in hand.
There was some talk about Kinvention in K/W, but I don't think I know enough people going, and have enough interest in what's going on there to seriously consider attending. I am still very interested in
misslynx's potential seminar on therianthropy there, but that's not enough justification for me to attend an entire weekend.I'd still like to go to SE Howl in March, but I am afraid it is too expensive for me, since I'd probably have to fly down to Alabama. The only way it's a possibility is if someone is driving from up here, and since
metachaos is the closest person to me and she's in Lansing (12-14 hours by car), I somehow doubt that is an option.Anyway...enought con talk.
I've come to a realization today, about a mood I've had for the last few days. I feel icky about my body, for whatever reason. My skin is unhappy, I don't feel particularily attractive in any respect, and I feel kinda touchy about the fact I have a belly. I feel fat. I don't like who I see in the mirror, with her bad winter-cursed skin. I'm dry, I'm flaky, I'm breaking out, and I'm blotchy. Ugh!
This is remarkably odd for me, since I'm usually rather comfortable with my body. I don't know. Gonna dye my hair again this week, see if it helps.
I'm also going to try to pull a "detox" week this week, anyway. Lots of water, balanced and regular eating schedule, no soda, no excess crap, and EXERCISE. I have really been feeling the lack of walking. It's unfortunate that there's a shitload of ice outside my door now, since I have to go out no matter what, and ice greatly increases the chance of me falling and breaking things. No excuses, tho. There must be walking, at least twice this week. Don't like feeling like a slug.
Fuck. It's been an hour, and I'm lonely again. Distance makes the heart grow fungus.
:(
-M.
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Date: 2005-01-03 03:55 pm (UTC)So make a day of it. There are day rates for Saturday only... wander out, do the seminar, meet some people and check the place out... see if it's worth coming out for next year. Lay some groundwork, y'know?
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Date: 2005-01-03 06:08 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2005-01-04 11:11 am (UTC)Though you could add in extra bits, make a weekend of it.
Do the convention on Saturday, stay over in the area [there are some great B&Bs in the Guelph region as well as all through this part of Ontario], spend the Sunday in Toronto shopping and seeing people.