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[witchscauldron]

My back's out. I HATE March. My arthritis goes nuts, I get frequent migraines, I'm all dry skin and nasty itchy, and it's either rain/snow/slush nasty or windy/muddy nasty. :( The only things I like about March are the occasional thunderstorms and the crows.

BLAH!

I'm still struggling with Ostara. I feel nothing but wretched, making the concept of celebrating anything anathema. The fact that March=mudsnow for me makes the idea of a land of green grass, bunnies, eggs, birds, flowers, and other assorted signs of fertility more like a taunt than a vision of Ontario at Ostara.
I've tried being positive about it, I've tried reminding myself that it's spring in other parts of the world. It doesn't work.

Any help?

Merp. Beading too much tonight. I know I'd be in agony sitting here so long, if I could feel my back. IF I could - drugs r good at the moment. It's at most an annoying twinge every now and then.

Alright. I want cookies and I want a Coke, but I have neither. I will have to settle for beads and diet root beer, I guess, and just keep waiting for J to come home.

-M.

Comments

[starfallz.livejournal.com]

Migraines for me too. >_

[misslynx.livejournal.com]

I tend to focus on the lengthening days, and the sun coming back. Probably helps that I have some degree of SAD so the lack of light in winter depresses me. I don't see it so much about spring already being here, but about the promise that it will be soon, even if right now you can only see it in the increasing sunlight.

[raptorkitten.livejournal.com]

I tend to have some problems feeling aptly celebratory for Ostara, too -- more daylight is the only indication of spring here. We get lots of snowstorms in March. Cold, snow, cold. Not very springlike, and there certainly isn't any flowers in sight, but I guess the focus is to think of days ahead. :)

[synthradea.livejournal.com]

I try thinking of it as a promise of spring to come. Cause it does not look like spring now. Although here we do get a bit of a tease. Some flowers bloom and it was actually nice enough for short sleeves. But no real sunshine, bunnies and lollipops. I try to think of what Ostara means and I find it hard to stay in sync. May I have a touch of SAD as well. I hope the arthritis improves some.

[morgandria.livejournal.com]

The problem I have with viewing Ostara as the promise of Spring is that I view Imbolg as the promise of Spring. Imbolg is cleansing rebirth. So apparently is Ostara. For me to have two holidays representing the promise of things to come is really sort of redundant. Ostara sort of holds a spiritual no-man's land in my year - it simply doesn't really mean anything to me. :\

Blah. I really don't know where to go with it. I think this year I will be making a new wreath for my door. That's it.

-M.