Duality.

[witchscauldron]

Feeling awful still. Not as stiff, got a little more sleep when I went back to bed at 7 AM...but it's still pretty craptastic.

I'm sitting in a Yahoo chat room apparently about "Totems" where sone member is babbling on like a cartoon character about how he retrieved the stolen half of his soul and is now teaching people about their gifts. >_< This, combined with the woman who just went into PMs with someone to give her an "online meditation to reveal her true spirit guides", makes me cringe and wander off quite a ways. What ever happened to the personal journey?

Instant spirituality - like instant coffee, but tastes worse. >_<

I feel my duality today. Light and dark, day and night, storm and sun. Half of me is swirling void, star-pierced glistening web and womb, twilight in black. The other is moonlight in winter, illuminated ice, crystal snow on the wind, blinding white. When one is soft, the other is hard. When one is playful, the other reposeful. When one is setting, the other rises. When they combine, I am All.

I have been thinking about windigo again, or wendigo....demon-spirits, shapeshifters...creatures with hearts of ice that seek to fill that void with the warmth of another living being's lifeforce.
They aren't specifically wolves...but sometimes I think of them that way. I wonder if my own affinity for ice is related.

marf. Jason's home soon. Heading out to grab some food for tonight - I ain't cooking, and am relatively indifferent to eating, but I should at least attempt to walk the grocery store and see if anything there sounds the least bit appealing. Tonight's AD&D night...I should get some sketching done, at least. TTYL.
-M.

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[ravynwolf.livejournal.com]

Its people like that who have really caused me to shy away from anything spiritual or mystical on the web. *sighs*
And these same people wonder why Spirituality has such a bad name...Hurmph...
Take for instance what I have to deal with:
A guy who is "Very Normal" he says he's not otherkin, Were or anything of the like. Just "vey informed." He belelives that Tolkien found lost juornal, and wrote about Middle Earth from them. As it did accually exsist. Ok, I could almost buy some of that, and there have been people raving about that for years. But he claims that he was part of the Fellowship, and that all of his friends had huge parts in the war of the ring. But it wasn't accually distroyed, but turned into artifacts that accually exsist in this world today. I kid you not.
And apparently, as I have had a dream or two about the Nazgul, I was one of them during that life. I used to be a good guy as it were but got tricked over to the dark side. Yup.
Oh, and in case I forget, his Middle Earth looks a hell of a lot like the one in the Movies, and he's never read any of Tolkiens books...
Ugh.
Sorry, I know thats a weird tangent, but I just wanted to let you know that you weren't alone in dealing with Twits.

[cypherwulf.livejournal.com]

Yahoo's Pagan chats are the worst, thus they are highly amusing and a great place to troll ;).

[wolfofblack.livejournal.com]

The first time my mind was pulled to wendigo, was the first time I saw it snow in Fresno just a couple days after. I found a kitten a lady was going to take to the SPCA should she not find him a home standing on the corner, so I took him and called him Witikowak, "Witiko" for short. He died a year or two later about a month before I found him, of mouth cancer.

Please excuse the possible irrelivancy of my replies. Memories and/or thoughts pop up and I sometimes feel the need to speak on those first impressions. I haven't had any other experiences with the wendigo. Anyhowls-of-wind...

I hope you feel better.