Bleh.

So...yes. It's 2005. Morg doesn't do New Year's tho, since I really feel the year changes at Samhain, so we stayed home. I ruined some food, we then got KFC, and watched RotK Extended. J primed some mini's, and I beaded some shiny things.

Never fails. Jason's cuddly, and I am not. Wonder where I can go to change that schedule around? >:\

Looks like a slippery day out there. We're off to Lady C's this afternoon, to have the fabric I bought turned into an Egyptian robe for the Isis invo...nice deep green crepe-backed satin. I also have to drop her jewelry off to her, that I made with the things she asked me to. Hopefully she'll like them.

Speaking of robes...I still haven't gotten my hour from my craft/art trade with Hastings1066 yet. Apparently she sent them at American Thanksgiving...but unless they got sent back to her, or the USPS has stolen or eaten them, I'm starting to think they never got sent. This is uber-frustrating for me, since I really do need the robes, and I finished my half of the trade the first week of September. I know she got my stuff....sooo....

The suspicious, paranoid part of my brain wonders if this is is possibly some malicious game instigated by her being friends with a certain person, but I don't want to think that, really, and I think both it's fairly unlikely, and unfair of me. At any rate, tho, I don't have my robes, I'm really unhappy about it, and there's fuck-all I can do. :( It's been 5 weeks...I know sometimes it can take as long as 6...but I have little hope.

Alright. There is food to be had, my head must be shaved, I must be showered, and then I think we must be off for robe-making. Everyone try to survive your trip back to work tommorow, and if you still have a week off, then enjoy that too.

-M.

Shinies!

I acquired a few new shinies over the holidays...

Bríd's Cross - pewter
pendant chosen by me, red glass chosen by Her. Very heavy necklace.

Twa Corbies - three ravens doing a dance in sterling silver. Heavy beading again. These are the same ravens from my DeviantArt icon. :> A Yule present from barkman.

Blue Star - cute, sort of rustic looking star, with blue glass and pewter. Lighter than the other two.

Those are mine. :) I was also asked by someone to find a way to combine some pearls and emerald leaves they had bought. The leaves were handcarved in Iceland, and are at once brilliant and delicate. I paired these elements with some pale pink glass seeds, and some copper beads from India. I hope she likes the result:

Emerald Leaves.

Alright. I'm off. Enjoy the shiny bits!
-M.

So quiet.

It's kinda empty here. Zathras is looking dejected, sleeping on his Dad's pillow. He was upset when Jason left tonight. Now, once again, I find myself in a very quiet house, and missing him. Didn't take long for two weeks to go by. :/

I have a shiny green robe now. It's very nice, and there was enough fabric left over that someone else could have a shiny green robe if they wanted one, too. Since Egyptian stuff is the only stuff I'll be allowed to wear green to with Circe Argent for a good long time, that's ok. I have to handsew the trim on this week, which is slightly daunting...lots of small backstitch, and patience for me. Lady C. was very nice in sewing it for me today.

Trying really hard to not feel awkward around the Circe Argent/Wyllow Rose people. I like them a lot, but I feel so....something, in the back of my head. Like a combination of unqualified/ungraceful/tongue-tied/stupid. Been squashing the anxiety and paranoia HARD; I keep coming home a little wound up and definetely happy, so I must be doing something right. Gotta keep doing it, with the Isis invo. shortly to occur.

Did some more thinking about conventions today. Too many, too many! But I think I've got it narrowed down to ConVocation in Michigan in February, and C-ACE in June. I have to get my shit together in short order for Convo, but I think I can, and C-ACE is well in hand.

There was some talk about Kinvention in K/W, but I don't think I know enough people going, and have enough interest in what's going on there to seriously consider attending. I am still very interested in misslynx's potential seminar on therianthropy there, but that's not enough justification for me to attend an entire weekend.

I'd still like to go to SE Howl in March, but I am afraid it is too expensive for me, since I'd probably have to fly down to Alabama. The only way it's a possibility is if someone is driving from up here, and since metachaos is the closest person to me and she's in Lansing (12-14 hours by car), I somehow doubt that is an option.

Anyway...enought con talk.

I've come to a realization today, about a mood I've had for the last few days. I feel icky about my body, for whatever reason. My skin is unhappy, I don't feel particularily attractive in any respect, and I feel kinda touchy about the fact I have a belly. I feel fat. I don't like who I see in the mirror, with her bad winter-cursed skin. I'm dry, I'm flaky, I'm breaking out, and I'm blotchy. Ugh!

This is remarkably odd for me, since I'm usually rather comfortable with my body. I don't know. Gonna dye my hair again this week, see if it helps.

I'm also going to try to pull a "detox" week this week, anyway. Lots of water, balanced and regular eating schedule, no soda, no excess crap, and EXERCISE. I have really been feeling the lack of walking. It's unfortunate that there's a shitload of ice outside my door now, since I have to go out no matter what, and ice greatly increases the chance of me falling and breaking things. No excuses, tho. There must be walking, at least twice this week. Don't like feeling like a slug.

Fuck. It's been an hour, and I'm lonely again. Distance makes the heart grow fungus.
:(
-M.