bells.

The phone keeps ringing, but I don't hear it. I've turned one off, the other is almost silent. I could answer it. I know it's Jason. Insistent. Wants to know if I'm fine. Whatever. I want to be alone today. I only have two hours of alone left. I want it in peace.

Merfle is giving me seven-tined antlers. I am in awe of this gift. It is precious...all autumn I have drawn myself closer to the Horned One...it seems fitting to give him such a noble offering.

I hear echoes of a voice in my head sometimes...not one I normally hear. Male...older. I wonder if it is Odin - my dual nature as wolf and raven seems it would appeal to him. I don't know. I hear so many things now. I just want to shut them all off.

Yule comes. Sometimes I don't feel much like Yule at all. This year I want it. Just Yule tho - no commercial gaudy Christmas nonsense. I want to celebrate Yule with a group. I want to be part of something. It seems sad and lonely to celebrate the birth of the Sun King alone. :\ Or maybe it's just me that's sad and lonely in my faith.

No matter. I don't mind. No minding the matter - it don't matter if I don't mind.

I hear bells chiming in my head...tiny bells...I wonder where my Tuatha wander. Maybe I should follow.

-m.